Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Epiphany

About two weeks ago, my second class started. Now I have almost 24 hours of class per week, and whatever additional study time I need.

Towards the end of January I set a goal that I would go to the gym regularly for one month: what I did at the gym and the amount of time I spent there were irrelevent; I just had to go. I set a schedule to go three times a week, and in the course of one month, I missed four days. Lame that I missed days, but I went often enough to establish a work out into my schedule, and now I feel gross if I don't go, so my goal was achieved.

Yesterday was an example of what I think will be a very typical day for me for the next three months. It was as follows:
6:30 AM - 7:00 AM: Cardio
7:00 - 8:00: Get ready, leave for school
8:05 - 8:20: Japji Sahib
8:20 - 11:00: Study Histo
11:00 - 12:00: Lunch
12:30 - 1:30: Physio Lecture
1:30 - 3:30: Prepare for physio lab
3:30 - 5:00: Physio lab
5:00 - 5:45: Break, Rehras Sahib
5:45 - 7:00: Study Physio
7:00 - 8:00: Dinner
8:00 - 10:00: Physio Study group
10:00: Go home and call it a night. Watched some TV, was in bed by 11:30 or something.

Today has been similar, though I have to admit that I'm a little tired. Hopefully my stamina will build; I really need it to. If I may, I'd like to point out that 14 hours on campus is a damn lot of school. DAMN lot. But here's the cool part:
This morning I was in the library reading before class, and I had an epiphany: I am exactly where I want to be. Granted, I'd love to be in medical school right now, but in order for that to be plausible, I would've had to be absolutely positive throughout college that medicine is what I want to do with my life, and that is not the case. Given that I took time in college to decide on a goal I really wanted, and otherwise got as much out of my undergraduate experience as I wanted to, I'm thrilled to be here. It feels good to work hard, learn about things I'm interested in, and be surrounded by people who are as driven and excited as I am. The only thing that could possibly make me feel better right now is for my grades to reflect my attitude. The demands of school are forcing me to become more disciplined, and I'm ready to embrace that. Anyway, I think it's apparent that I feel really good about where I'm at, and I just hope this good feeling lasts for awhile.

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